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A celebration

My son was born May 31,1992 at 12:31 in the morning,seventeen years ago today.Wow,what a blessing his birth was. His name is Jacob,and he is the most wonderful boy I know. He is my son that gives me a kiss and a hug,and has never been ashamed to show his love for his parents out in public. He has a great heart,he is a giver,and the most unselfish child I know.Yes, I am proud of my son.Today we celebrated his birthday with his close friends at the bowling lanes.We had a wonderful time laughing and just being silly with one another. I even ended up throwing my ball backwards into everyone! That just seems to happen with me.But to hear my son laugh is a great joy to me. We enjoyed cake,and shared with one another. It was an afternoon out that was filled with love and laughter. Our childrens birthdays are very special.We love to throw big parties and have all the fun we can have together. We can remember each date our children were born,the time,their weight,height,and all the stories of …

Waiting on someone?

I can remember my mother waiting up for me when I went out and didn't come home when I should have.As I walked in the door I could see the pain on her face that I had disobeyed and didn't come home when I was to.She had given me privledges and I abused them,and was selfish.As I became the mother of teenage girls,I too waited on them,not just at night,but anytime because I loved them and wanted so much to protect them.A mother knows those feelings of waiting.We waited for our prom date to ask.We waited on the right man to come along.We waited as we were pregnant with our child,and then during labor,we waited to make sure they were here and okay.We wait upon many things in life.Sometimes we wait a long time for answers,for relationships to reconcile,for loved ones to be saved and come to know the Lord.We wait on dinner,we wait for the phone to ring.While we are waiting do we always show patience? I can say I haven't.That is one thing that I struggle with,I want everything to…

Are you stuck in a lions den?

In Danial chapter 6:10-23 it tells the story of Danial in the lions den. This has been a favorite story of my children.I remember having this book of bible stories for children,and asking my kids,"Which story do you want to read today?" Over and over again my son would yell out,"Danial,mom,tell us about Danial." Here in this story, Danial is thrown into the lions den for praying to God,and not bowing down to their idols. Because of Danials great faith and knowing God was with him and would not allow harm to come upon him,King Darius worshipped God throughout the rest of his reign. Danial brought God honor through his faithfulness and trust in Him. Danial didn't do anything to hurt King Darius,he only stated the truth and took a stand for God. His God and King. He wasn't going to worship any other thing brought before him.God blessed Danial for trusting in Him,and serving Him.Has anything brought you to the lions den lately? Could someone look at our lives a…

When did you know what you wanted to be?

Its funny now that I look back over my life and see the dreams I thought I wanted to achieve. When I was a kid,I played teacher, and nurse.Those were the things I really wanted to do.To be a nurse or a teacher was my plan.I remember keeping a notebook of my students,and placing paper around my bed for each student bear or doll. I would really stand and teach,act like I was grading papers and having roll call. I did it all. Now, being a nurse, I had all the things needed to act that out also. I nursed my dolls,bears and my parents back to health. I know I was strange kid with a vivid imagination. When we were taking these crazy quizzes on facebook just a few days ago something caught my attention.I had the question,"What did I want to be most when I was a kid?" I had to really think about that, and I came up with a writer. Some of my friends,ofcourse said they knew me better than myself. But as I looked back over my childhood,I was the kid with the pen and paper. I carried it…

What kind of walls are you putting up?

This week as my son has been helping a friend build a house,he comes home every evening very tired. He has worked really hard and learned many new things about building. I started thinking about the walls we build up around ourselves. Many times we build them around us because we have been hurt,relationships have scared us,and we protect ourselves from getting hurt again. In some cases,we have seen others get hurt and we can see the pain it has caused,so we build up those walls around us so we never feel that pain we have seen our friends and family face. It gets to a point in some peoples lives that they build those walls up around them and just focus on them,not thinking of others. We live in a painful world,and we can build walls for several different reasons.How sad to build those walls and never allow yourself to feel love. That is a lonely place to be. It is better to be loved and know hurt,then to never have loved at all. In our relationship with Jesus,we have to have faith in …

Sisterhood.....

Sisterhood is an amazing treat. Its like an icecream on a hot day.Its like dipping in the lake to get refreshed.Its that thing you never forget to pack on a trip. Its that spot in your heart that is filled to the brim with love,and not just love,but,uncondisional love. Sisterhood has blessed my heart with so many different sisters I have met,for each one God has brought into my life. Each one is there for a different purpose and plan God has that God has to touch our lives. We are knit together like a woven sweater,all connected by our love for Jesus. Sisters are there for you to hear the yucky stuff,the hurtful things,the mountains and valleys we go through. They too are there for those times of blessings. My speed dial is full. Most of the space is for my sisters. They are the first ones you want to call when something goes wrong,or when you want to praise God for something wonderful. A sisterhood is a connection,a line you have that cannot be broken. Your sisters help keep you on t…

Whats the score now?

Have you ever been arguing with your husband or anyone for that matter and all of a sudden you bring up all the past hurts? That person has totally forgot them,but we remember all from the beginning of time. We can count each and every one of the hurts or wrongs committed against us. Our we at a ballgame and need to be keeping score? No, we shouldn't but it seems that we can struggle with that very much. If a person has hurt us, we not only bring up that,but we can go back in time, years really,and think we can change things,or make them better by keeping a list. Lists are for our groceries.Keeping score if for our softball games. We should forgive as Christ forgives us. In Colossians 3:13 it tells us; "Bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do." Christ is telling us to forgive just as He did. Would we really want Jesus keeping score of our many sins against Him? I don&#…

Trusting God no matter what...

A few years ago I found myself having a mammogram. I had gone in for my yearly check up. I had to have the dreaded mammogram,and they just are not fun for me. But as women we must have them, for they can save our lives. My mammogram had come back with a bad result. As soon as I heard the nurse telling me I had to come back in for another one because something just doesn't look right, I began to cry. I had let satan get into my mind, and allow me to think that something was really wrong before I ever had the second mammogram. Why do we allow ourselves to get caught up in all that worry that in the end just makes us sick?I had spent days worrying. As I went in for my second mammogram, my mom went with me. I did feel comfort knowing she was with me.Its amazing how much comfort our moms can give us. As I waited for my results, I remembered a movie I had seen, "Facing the Giants",and I thought of the part where the woman had gone in for her pregnancy test and she wasn't s…

To talk or to be quiet?

Many times we get angry with others. Our co-workers,friends,husband,children and those who walk in our paths. Have you ever been driving and you look over at the person driving next to you,and they look as though they are angry at the whole world? So many people are just angry, and many have no cause to be angry at you.They are angry at others,maybe their pasts have caused much hurt,or maybe they are going through something hard and they do not know the Love and forgivness of Jesus. We sometimes don't know whats behind that anger to begin with. Many times our anger comes from deep within and we don't even realize it. We can wake up angry,or wake up just fine and then bang, it all seems to blow up in our faces. We can begin to think about things and we just start to form this anger that wells up within us. For me, I am a talker. I would rather talk things out as to just try to ignore the problem. In Matthew 5:9 it says; "Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be calle…

Quilts, I love them so...

I have a collection of quilts. Some are very old,some are new,but they all mean something special to me. I have loved quilts for such a long time,the homemade ones are the most special to me.They are stitched together by tiny hands of women. Put together with love and beauty for each one. Last summer my husband took me to the quilt museum in Kentucky. I was so excited to be going,for I really didn't know what to expect. As we walked in and payed our fee,right before me was the winner of them all. It had won first prize, a $20,000 first prize. I was amazed at the beauty and technique. As we walked hand in hand I was overwhemed at all the quilts that hung like beauty in the air. We finally came to one.It was all white,dressed with pink flowers across the whole top. It was the most beautiful one I had seen so far. I just stood with tears streaming down my cheeks at the wonder of it all. To know a woman sat with this quilt for many months at hand,and put in so much time and love throu…

Fireflies...

My son and I were driving home the other night and as we looked out the window we could see thousands of fireflies. It was the most amazing sight. Just night, the moon and fireflies dancing across the fields. As we got home and parked the car,all we could do was just stop and stare. It was a beauty all its own. It was like a masterpiece being designed by God Himself. Twinkling lights of laughter for little ones to catch, and for us on that night,was just between us. I love fireflies. They are so tiny,but give off a great light.Just as we are God's people,we are so signifigently small. We too can give off a great light. I can only imagine heaven with all the saints before us,do they all shine before heaven in the same way for God to see in all His glory? It is one of my favorites at summer,for in the beginning,you can see the glow. For us,we are blessed to live in the country.We can look right outside our windows and see the wonder of it all.

The Pearl

Pearls are treasured by many in our world. They think them to be of beauty. Me, I like black pearls. They are different and rare. Pearls do not start out beautiful. They start out as a little piece of sand in the oyster. Over time that grain of sand gets bigger, and all the ridges and roughness of it are gone. As the oyster kinda grinds and polishes that piece of sand, it slowly with time becomes something of beauty,but it didn't get that way on its own. Our lives are like this pearl. I think of all the harshness handed to me,the mean words, the hurt, betrayal in life,as the oysters grinding of that sand pebble.After awhile all the mean stuff rubbing on that sand pebble begins to make it shine, get its shape and color. If we allow all those mean things in life to rub at us, and let them go,God comes along and polishes us up, He makes the rough patches a thing of beauty. We may find that it is the hard things in life that make us the people God wants us to be. It is through those t…

The Narrow Path...

Have you ever driven on a narrow road? Its not easy at all, your always afraid your going to go into the other lane or they will cross over to you. You might even go off road. Maybe your walking a narrow path in the woods,and you find it hard because of all the bushes and twigs coming at you. I remember as a kid playing in the pool, and we would play the game of swimming under one another,between each others legs. That was not as easy as it seemed. Sometimes you just couldn't get through,especially if they tried to close their legs and grab you. There are narrow paths to take, they seem longer and harder than the wide ones. The wide ones are easy. You may get there a little faster,but is it always the best way? In Matthew 7:13-14 it tells us this; "Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find …

Wheres your advice come from?

Its funny that we have an awesome God who knows all,but when we need advice, we always seem to turn to others or worst yet ourselves for advice. Is is not wiser for we to allow God to teach us,than for His hand to correct us? Why can we not seem to fathom that? We should always go to God first,and seek His wisdom and knowledge. He gave us life,yet we assume we know more about it than He. Isaiah 55:8 tells us this; "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways, Says the Lord." We cannot fathom the depth of His love or wisdom. Our thoughts will never be as His,nor will they even come close. Going to our christian friends for advice on things that seem heavy on our hearts is not bad,but first with our humble hearts we should be going straight to God with all we have. In Ephesians 3:14-19 it says; " For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, acco…

Sharing a prayer request or gossip?

Have you heard the phrase "I'm not gossiping, I am just sharing with a friend a prayer request"? Please, I have even said those words. There is no such thing. Why does gossip seem to be okay as long as it isn't about us? When we are hurt by gossip,then it kinda wakes us up to what it really is. Its tearing down a person to another. Its talking about things we have no idea of. Its adding our own light to it. Its us thinking we have the right to say these things to others, and when we do gossip about someone, how many times is it to someone who doesn't even know them? Then they go and spread it to others who don't know the person. As gossip moves it spreads like cancer. Its ugly, and merciless. It is not love, nor is it compassion. If someone really does share a prayer request with us, let us pray together, and let it stop there. Do we really need to be in others business? No, we do not. As my Pastor says very wisely;"If your not part of the problem or the…

Just me, praising God

In our lives,I believe nothing happens by chance. All happens for a reason,and a purpose. I don't believe in chance or luck. I believe that God is always moving in our lives to bring us closer to Him. One of my bestfriends makes cards, yep, I'm gonna say her name, its Tami. She makes the most beautiful cards I have ever seen. She loves to make cards, I love to send'em. She is one who encourages me to write also. I have my friend Bobbie,who I love with all my heart, she seems to bring out the creativity in me. She blesses me with her laugh and oh how I love to see her praise God,and raise her hands up high. My friends lead me to this blog page. I think the first blog I read was Ashleys. It was amazing how she wrote all those poems, and placed all her thoughts down for others to see. I have so many stories like this that I could tell. The thing that has blessed me this week is my blogging and facebook. I have met the most amazing people. I can go to my homepage and see all t…

Is today as far as you can see?

Is today as far as you can see? We can look into our pasts, we can see today,but we are not able to see the future. Only Jesus knows what our future holds. We are not to worry about what comes tomorrow. Matthew 6:34 says; "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." We dont have to worry about last night, today,or tomorrow. God has it all in His hands. If you are like me, you have worried, you have worried about your children, our parents, our health, our jobs,and all that can consume our minds. If we allow all those negative things to enter into our minds, is there still room for our faith? We have to trust in Jesus and know that we know that we know He is our God,He is bigger than anything that comes our way. We must believe that all we place into His hands He will care for as its the only thing He must do. For me, I have to be able to look past today. I have to be able to look to Jesus to…

Whats standing in your way today?

As you wake today, we can look all around us and see God's creation. We can see His beauty all around. We can come to Him at any moment,and ask Him to come into our hearts and forgive us of our sins, the wrongs that we have made against Him. We can talk with Him about anything on our hearts. We can seek wisdom,gain knowledge, pray about our future,our past,and our present. We can intercede for those in need,and walk with Him and listen to His word. He can lead us through this ugly world we live in, and He can stand in the way of our enemies. If all this and more is possible today,what is standing in your way? Maybe you feel as though no one can love you for the past you have lived. Jesus can. Perhaps you allow your pride to get in the way. Jesus can remove it. Just maybe you think theres a catch to it all. No catch, only Jesus' love. You may be lost in pain. Jesus can give you the strength to move. Maybe you let the world's wisdom lead you into thinking there is no God. He…

Roses or wildflowers?

I have been very blessed to have my husband bring me roses. They are very beautiful and fragrant. They come in every color you can imagine now. They seem to make the whole room smell nice. You walk by them,you can't help but bend down and smell them,taking in all the beauty. I remember the first time my husband surprised me with wildflowers. He stopped along one of our country roads and picked me a beautiful bouquet. It was full of many different flowers and colors. It was a hot day, and ofcourse if your going to get out of your car on a country road, you know when you step into that field here comes the ticks and chiggers. These are the flowers that bless me the most. Anyone can stop by the market or the florist and pick up roses,but for a man to stop on the road and go out into the field and come into the house with his hand behind his back and say,"Close your eyes",and hands you a picked bouquet of flowers that have the scent of cow manure is the best gift of all! Yes…

The bean plant....

Remember when you were in kindergarden or 1st grade and you got to grow a bean plant? I think everyone has had this experience,and if you haven't you have watched your children bring them home. I remember mine in kindergarden. I brought it home in a little styrofoam cup. My mom set it in the window,watered it everyday and I waited, and waited to watch it grow. I would go into the kitchen every morning and look at my little cup that I began to cherish. One day as I came into the kitchen I looked up at my little cup and right there was the little green sprout. I was so excited to see that little plant growing. At school we had put in the dirt, next we added the seed,and watered it just enough to make the soil moist. At home it kept growing, getting bigger and bigger,until one day the little seed coat fell off and now it was really ready to grow. Our lives are like this little bean plant with Christ. Someone comes along and sees the dirt and knows that it would be much more beautiful…

How do you accept a gift?

We either love to give or we even like to receive. I love getting special gifts to brighten up my day,but more than that I love to give gifts to others. I am a card giver. I just love writing loving words down to bless others. Once my pastor tried to give me a gift,and I knew that gift was special to him.It was one of his dads concordances. I didn't want to accept this gift,for I knew how special it was to him. But,he shared with me how important it is to accept gifts from others. To not accept a gift from others is taking the joy away from them. I thought this to be a beautiful thing. Beautiful and wise words to live by. Every since then,those words of wisdom have stood with me in my heart. I have learned to accept a gift and say thank you. I accepted the Lord's salvation freely and am so thankful for His gift of love. The Lord sends special people in our lives to touch us,whether it be with a wrapped gift, a hug,a note, or a prayer. How can we not accept what others are givi…

Got Milk?

I have to share this story with you. My Pastor told this story a few times now,and everytime I hear it, it blesses my soul. Bro.Ben was preaching on obeying God, and following Him and His lead. He told of a man that had gone to the market,and while he was there,he heard God tell him to buy a gallon of milk. He thought this to be crazy,for he didn't need any milk. God kept talking, until the man bought the gallon of milk,still not understanding,but following his Maker. As he started driving home,now he hears God giving him directions,as to turn here,and now get out. The man sat in his car,I'm sure thinking he was crazy.How could he really go up to someones house he didn't know and just give them milk? God was on this mans heart,and he listened and obeyed. As he went to the door and knocked a man came to the door. He held out the gallon of milk to him,and the man took it and shut the door. The man, starting to walk away, now sees the other open the door again with tears stre…

What is it that we really need?

What is it that we really need in life? Is it a new home,a new car,maybe new shoes would be nice,even a new purse to hold all our stuff that we so desperatly think we need. We tend to fill our lives with stuff. The stuff seems to be what we think we need. Have you ever gone to yardsales or even auctions and seen something really cheap and just had to buy it? Even at the shopping mall,you go and find a great sale,you buy it because you thought it was a great deal and you needed it. I don't know how many times I have come home with stuff, and my husband has said,"Did you really need that?" Well, ofcourse I did, or so I thought I did,until I had it for awhile and began to think,why did I buy this in the first place. Our lives can contain so much junk that we think we need. All we really need is Jesus and His love. All the other stuff in my life is really of no value. But the love Christ has for me is. Psalm 46:1 says; "God is our refuge and strength, A very present hel…

Who is it that completes you?

The world that we live in now tends to teach that a man or a woman completes us. Maybe a degree,a large company, a big house, the raciest car,the best and the brightest children,money,and many friends. Sometimes we can hear negative talk and make us feel as though we are not complete enough or whole unless we have these things to show in our lives. There are two verses I want to share with you. The first is 2 Corinthians 13:9, "For we are glad when we are weak and you are strong.And this also we pray,that you may be made complete." The second is from James 1:4," But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete,lacking nothing." The only person that can make us complete is Christ. He and He alone completes us. It doesn't take a boyfriend or girlfriend to make us special.As when we were in highschool,many kids had girlfriends or boyfriends to make them feel special,to make them feel important. We don't need a boy to tell us that,no…

Broken Wings....

Have you ever felt as though you were about to break? Maybe you feel as though you are alone in all your troubles. As we can see the birds flying in the air,what happens when they have a broken wing? They cannot fly,and if they cannot fly,they are open to all the preditors around them. We too can feel as though our wings are broken. If we are feeling alone, someone is giving us negative words,if we have lost our job,or our family is torn apart,we can be so hurt,that we cannot soar any longer. I have felt like one of those birds that may have a broken wing. I have felt that I was all alone with no one to turn too. As we want to fly so badly,things and situations can come into our lives and we feel as though our wings have been clipped. We don't have to feel that way. When we get down and lose ourselves in our pain,its hard to get back up,but with God we can. He will help our wings heal, and be back flying if we put our faith and trust in Him. In Ecclesiates 4:12 it states; "Th…

To live a quiet life...

Do you find yourself desiring a quiet life? We can be so busy with our lives and be involved in so much we lose track of who we are and our real purpose. Some love to have sound all around them,me I enjoy the quiet. Those days that I can find quiet are the days I can reflect on Christ. When we are busy we can get too involved and forget to reflect upon Christ,and when we do we lose something very valuable,our relationship with Him. In our lives we can get involved in trying to know everything around us, and be busybodies,which in turn leads to gossip. Why is it so hard today to be quiet and to find quiet? Many times people think us to be strange if we are not always busy,and not running ourselves ragged. In 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12 tells us; "That you also aspire to lead a quiet life,to mind your own business,and to work with your own hands,as we commanded you, that you may walk properly toward those who are outside, and that you may lack nothing." If we have many children, a…

Do you need rest?

I love reading the Psalms.They can bring such comfort. There is beauty in these words,and much wisdom to live by.Have you ever found yourself needing rest? Have you ever been so tired from work,or your heart is heavy with stress that you cannot sleep at night? That feeling that you are so tired and wish you could fall asleep,but your mind and body just won't allow it. As a mother, I believe we have all felt this way. Whether you work outside your home and have a family,or whether you work inside your home and homeschool your children,we know all to well what it feels like to be tired. Our jobs do not begin and end from 9-5. They are 24hr jobs. I remember the nights when my children were ill,and I would stay up all night with them.Even caring for my mother,the times at the hospital with her,that seemed to last throughout the night. Those of my friends who suffer from migraines as I do,know what staying awake all night is. For those like my daughter who work the night shift,and try …

My Trip to Walmart.....

A few years ago I had made a trip to Walmart. I had many things to get. A whole cart full. I had just had a cortisone shot in my wrist and was feeling the pain,and I had just found the lump in my neck. I was really feeling poorly. I gathered all my things and headed for the check out line. As the young girl was checking my things out I asked her if she could please put them in my cart. Not thinking she heard me,I asked again. Oh,she heard me the first time.So she went on to tell me that was not her job. I was shocked at this information,for this is a check-out persons job. I realized there was a woman behind me,and she started cursing at me. Yelling in fact,that others were doing their own bags,why couldn't I? I tried my best to ignore this woman who seemed she felt the need to scream at me now for all to hear. I asked the young girl again and even said,I always do this myself but today I cannot. The woman behind me kept yelling. I just felt the Holy Spirit come over me,and I was …

Have you been sharpening anyone lately?

In Proverbs 27:17 it tells us "As iron sharpens iron,So a man sharpens the countenance of his friend." I have been loving my homepage in my facebook. It has been a blessing. The Lord has filled my friend list with Christians from all over the U.S. It is awesome to see what they are writing,the blessings and the struggles. I have been following many blogs of christian women teaching one another,and walking with Christ together. This is a new journey for us each day we wake.We never know what may come our way. To speak to others that have traveled those roads we are new to,is a blessing straight from God. I love how He puts those people in our lives to help mold us,teach us,and keep one another accountable. I have several friends that I am accountable to. It makes this journey even better. To have a friend ask me if I did my lesson,or if I am reading my bible is adding to who I am,and them also. As we read this verse from Proverbs we can see that we are to keep each other acco…

Would you die for a friend?

Would you die for a friend? Jesus died for all of mankind,not just one person worthy. None of us were worthy of His sacrifice for us. This question was asked one day in our Sunday School class. I may be really goofy according to others,but I had to raise my hand and say yes.Yes,I would. After coming home I really put some thought into this one.I have my family,my best friends,my church family and then we have those we meet everyday when we walk out our doors. I find that my life is no more important than anyone else's life. Take a look at the disciples.They died for Christ and for what they believed in. They lived their lives knowing they were not better,their lives were no more important than anyone else. I have to say if a bus was coming,I would push my friend out of the way in order to protect her. If a man came in I would definetly step in front of a friend for a bullet.As mothers,we know we would die for our children,our family,but what about others? I remember at one of the …

Going Climbing.....

Have you been climbing any mountains lately? I have,and its really hard to climb. Once your in that valley and you look up and see how high the mountain is,do you really want to climb it? Whats at the top of that mountain for you? Is it relief,peace,quietness,or could it be just growth? I have climbed many mountains in my life,and too have been in those valleys. When your in the valley all we see is the pain,hurt,sufferings,but with those comes a need.That need is to be lifted up,put on a straight course.Many times we get ourselves lost in the valleys of life and we cannot see clearly anymore through all the trees.What trees in your life are blocking your view of the mountain? We all have been there,we all have those big trees that we just cannot for the life of us get past. At first I thought being on the mountain top was the best thing. It was the place where all felt right and good. But for me,I seem to slip off that mountain and into the valley over and over again. I have found th…

A healing wound...

Remember as a kid when you would be riding your bike and you would fall off on the gravel? I learned to ride my bike in the gravel,and it wasn't always fun. I fell off my bike many times. I scraped my knees so badly, I still have scars today. I would fall into the rocks and they would dig into my knees. Once my mom had to pick them all out,while I sat crying. She would pick them all out and then put on medication,put on bandaids and they would begin to heal. If you were like me,as soon as the scab started to form ya picked it off and then it began to bleed again. Its alot like our lives,getting our hearts broken,and beginning to heal. See, God made that scab for a reason. Its there to protect that wound,and to allow it to heal from the inside out. If we pick that scab off,then we start all over again. I learned to stop picking my scabs off,and let them heal on their own. Just as now,I am learning to allow my heart to heal,and others also. It seems at times just when we think it is…

A Favorite of mine

At church I love to hear singing,with that singing,I can praise the Lord.Just me and Him during that time of singing,I can close my eyes and picture Him there with us worshipping. A young woman at church sings on Sunday mornings. She will often sing the song Better is one day in your courts. I know this is not the real title,but its how I remember the song that touches my heart. There is a verse in the song that sings, Better is one day in Your courts than thousands elsewhere. In 2 Peter 3:8 it tells us; "But, beloved, do not forget this one thing,that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day." In our time things happen slowly,but in God's time it is always perfect. We seek Him to come,and He will come. The Lord has longsuffering for His creation and wants all to come to know Him as Savior. Just one day with the Lord,is better than a thousand days without Him. I would rather spend one day with Christ,than anywhere else here on earth. …

Our Pasts

Why is it that our pasts haunt us so? We all have them. I did not come to Christ until my 20's, when I had my son Jake. Coming to Christ was the very best thing that has happend in my life. He has brought me so much. I have been through many sickness',trials and growth. I am not the same person I was at 20.In my past I was not always nice, I had done drugs,drank, smoke,I had sex before I was married.I could go on and on with telling you stories of my past.But the stories of my past don't really matter,its what has happen since my past. Its what has happend since Jesus came into my life,and all that He has done for me and with me. When I was young,I didn't really know what a Christian was. I had heard the name born again,and heard family speak about how strange they were. I just had the idea that being a christian was no fun at all. That is such a trap that satan puts us in. I have had more fun as a christian,than my whole life. I can laugh without being drunk,I can go …

My miracle

Two years ago I felt a lump in my neck. I just happend to turn and it hurt,so I felt my neck and there was a lump.I was fearful, I cannot deny that. I called the doctor right away,but each day it got bigger and bigger,with my fears growing. As I went to the doctor,he too was frighted. He sent me to a surgery specialist. I had many tests done over a period of time,as this lump was growing. We made my surgery date to biopsy this thing growing by the day. The morning of my surgery date,Bro.Ben and Bro. Brad had come to see me,although I do not remember alot about their visit,I know Bro. Ben prayed over me. Before that the doctor had come in and placed an X on my lump with a black marker. As they rolled me into surgery,I was awake but really silly. As I was laying there,the nurse began to feel my neck.She kept feeling,and then said,"Honey,did they mark your neck right?" Ofcourse they did,but she couldn't feel the lump.Others felt,and still could not feel anything.The nurse s…

Miss Independent?

There is a popular song out today called "Ms.Independent". Telling about how this woman can do it all.She doesnt need anyone or anything from anyone.It speaks of her new car,her new job,and all the money she has. If we aren't careful we too can have these ideals about life as a woman. We have womens rights who teach their daughers they can do anything a man can do and do it better.They teach about going off to war,and being the head of the house and making all the decisions.They degrade men and make them look useless. Our world teaches that its great to have sex,have many partners,do all you can to make it to the top,and not caring about who you step on to get there. They teach us that "Its our body,we can do with it what we want." First just let me say,I am glad I am not a man. I could in no way go out and do what my husband does,nor would I want to. As he could not do what I do.It is a marriage.I am glad my husband acts like a man,and is head of our home. I w…

Are we ever alone?

Psalm 138:7 states this; "Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch out Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand will save me." We can be confident that in this life we will have trouble, we will have trials.We can also be confident that God is always with us. Just as when I was a little girl afraid,I would reach out for my daddies hand. He had huge hands,and within them I knew I was safe. Even though my daddies hands were big,God's hands are bigger. In our times of trouble God will reach out to us,protecting us, leading us, and loving us through all those trials. Just as if a man were hanging off a cliff, knowing danger is around him,and knowing he is about to fall,out of nowhere a hand comes and pulls him up to safety. This is a picture of God with us. In my life I have felt as though I was falling and had no chance of reviving myself. But see, God was there,He reached out to me,pulled me up to Him and He revived …

We were made with love...

Psalm 139:14 says this; "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfull made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Is that verse just awesome? Does it make you smile? It just about puts a fire under my feet. I love this verse. We can come to this verse,and see that we can praise God for how He created us. He created all things beautiful. We are fearfully and wonderfully made. He didn't make junk,He didn't make throw backs, and He sure never made mistakes. He made each one of us with His beautiful hands,created in us beauty that surpasses all. In each one of us, He put His love and created what was beautiful in His sight. He didn't just create the outside,but the inside where our beauty begins. I always taught my daughters,who are very beautiful, that beauty begins within,and flows outward. Beauty is created with God's hands,we are all special,each and everyone of us. I love the New King James version of this verse.Psalm 139:14 "I will pr…

What do we boast in?

Ephesians 2:8-10 says this; "For it is buy grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works,so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Also in 1 Corinthians 1:31 says; "Therfore, as it is written:Let him who boasts boast in the Lord." I think these two verses can keep us in check and show us who we are. First through God's grace He saved us, He didn't have to climb upon the tree to be our sacrifice,He did it out of love for us,and to bring glory and honor to the Father. All Jesus did,was to point straight to the Father.He gave Himself so freely,to show His true love. Its through our faith in Christ that we are saved, its not our works that save us. It isn't all the great things we do in live that will lead us to heaven. Whether in this life we touch one person with God's blessings or touch a…